i think im about to relive the worst moment/period of time of my life. why. not now. not ever. please. im just so confused right now. i want to go to sleep so i can escape all of this but i dont want to go to sleep because then ill eventually have to wake up and right now pretty much everybody i know is asleep so i dont have to deal with anybody and i can just think for myself and im kinda away from all of this bs right now, so why accelerate time in order to jump back into my problems. why is this happening.